I'M BORED.

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1. What is something you are currently looking forward to?
Indifference to wash over me, so that I can finally feel better.

2. Are your lights on?
Yes, but not for long. The dark is so much more calming.

3. What time did you wake up yesterday?
6:09AM

4. Were you single your last birthday? 
Indeed.

5. Have you ever died your hair?
Never.

6. How many people do you trust with everything?
Currently, a few.

7. Do you get along with your siblings?
Yes, but no. 

8. Was your last kiss a mistake?
I was the mistake. 

9. What are you wearing right now?
Blue.

10. Will you be in a relationship this year?
It doesn’t matter.

11. What color are your bed sheets?
Rainbow, stripped.

12. Have you lost a friend in the past year?
No, everyone is my friend.

13. Was he/she a good friend?
Everyone is a good friend.

14. How tall are you?
5’4 or 5’5

15. How long was your last phone conversation? When was it?
Last night, thirteen seconds. 

16. What did you do last night before you fell asleep?
I didn’t fall asleep.

17. Do you find piercings on the opposite sex attractive?
Doesn’t matter. 

18. Have you ever had your heart broken?
It doesn’t really matter, but yes. 

19. Are you taller than the last person you kissed?
No. 

20. Is your hair curly or straight?
Manageable. 

21. Beach or mountains?
Both. 

22. Are you ticklish?
Very much so.

23. When did your last kiss that was a mistake take place?
Doesn’t matter.

25. Where is your favorite place in the world to be?
Somewhere I suppose I can never return. 

26. Do you have enemies?
No, but not everyone likes me. 

27. Were you single in December 2008?
Yes and no.

28. What are you doing today?
Doesn’t matter.

29. How many unread text messages did you have this morning?
None, as usual.

30. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive, which I tend to do too easily.

31. If you could travel anywhere right now, where would it be?
There. 

32. What’s the longest amount of time you’ve been away from home for?
Not long enough to miss it.

33. What do you think about before you fall asleep?
Anything and everything, but sometimes about him.

34. Do you think you have pretty eyes?
My opinion doesn’t matter, but I think they are.

35. Who have you spent time with directly after school lately?
Nobody. 

36. How many piercings do you have?
None.

37. Tattoos?
None.

38. Can you play the piano?
I wish.

39. Name nine people that you miss?
Marina, Niko, Annika, my mother, my brother, my father, my uncle, Trinket, him.

40. Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
It doesn’t matter, but yeah, nine months last year.

41. Are you in a bad mood?
It doesn’t matter.

42. Did your night suck last night?
I didn’t sleep, but to me that’s neither good nor bad.

43. Does everything happen for a reason?
Yes, though I wonder why this always happens to me.

44. Do you give people too many second chances?
Absolutely.

45. Are you good at expressing how you feel?
Yes, it just takes time for me to express it. I cannot be rushed into a direct answer.

46. When was the last time you lost a friend?
A year ago. But I found them again. 

47. Do you miss that person?
They’re still close to my heart.

48. Do you like to swim?
Yes, but I’m not very good at it.

49. Has anyone every borrowed something from you and never returned it?
Yes. And they destroyed and buried it in front of my house.

50. Why didn’t they return it?
They hate me. 

51. When is your birthday?
January 29th.

52. Are you single?
Yes.

53. Do you currently have a crush?
Yes, and nothing can be done.

54. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Valle.

55. Would you rather have a lot of friends or one best friend?
I have both, so I don’t have to choose.

56. Out of your top ten best friends, is anyone not a virgin?
I don’t pry so I don’t know.

57. Do you trust people easily?
Faaaaaar too easily.

58. Do you fall for people quickly?
No, but I did once.

59. Who is someone who can always make you happy when you’re upset?
Any friend of mine. 
 
60. Have you changed in the past year?
Indeed.

61. What is your favorite class this year?
Stained glass and fifth period.

62. Are you the type of person who tries to fix friendships or just lets them go?
Fix, but I don’t know what to do now.

63. Sun or moon?
Doesn’t matter, really. Both exist infallibly.

64. Does your best friend go to your school?
Yes.

65. Who is the most immature person you know?
All boys.

66. Is there anyone you can’t say “hi” to when you see them in school?
No. I’m physically capable, but not  emotionally ready.

67. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
That depends.

68. Have you ever kissed someone whose name you didn’t know?
Never.

69. Is there someone who you wish you could say something to right now?
Most definitely.

70. What would you say to that person?
Everything, only to get nothing in return. 

71. Who did you last talk to?
Verbally: My mum.
Textually: Erica.

72. What are you listening to?
Nature vs. Nurture by The Fall of Troy and Fold Your Hands Child by Cobra Starship.

73. Are you content with your life right now?
No. Doesn’t matter.

74. Do you like deep conversations?
I love them, but I can’t have them anymore. 

75. Do you have a running partner?
I was supposed to, but times change and people forget.

76. Where was your best memory formed?
I don’t have one. 

77. What are you doing next Friday?
Most likely nothing, as usual. 

79. What are you currently thinking?
Did you ever care?

80. Do you share a room with anyone?
Yes: the empty shell that answers to my parents.

81.What was something that you used to have that was only between you and one other person?
Yes, but not anymore.

81. Do you collect anything?
Rubber ducks and bottle caps.

Missing

High above winter,
where all smells of cedar,
above all their rooftops,
inside someone’s heart,

Down below autumn,
where all feels like ice,
inside they shiver,
and so do I

Twenty one days. Twenty one extremely painful days.